An Anxious Heart

It’s been a long while since I’ve posted. I’m trying to work myself back into writing. The last few months have thrown me off track. I’ve found it difficult to open my writing files. And although I’ve preached to other writers about the necessity of just writing even if it is only journal writing, I haven’t been able to write many words. In fact, the only word I wrote yesterday was Lord . . .

Do I feel as if my passion has changed? No. But I do feel as if the two month hiatus (now three) has allowed fear to set in. Fear of the unknown and all the what ifs. What if I can’t succeed? What if I’m only chasing the wind? What if my passion has changed?

I feel much like the man spoken of in Proverbs 12:25

An anxious heart weighs a man down . . .

I know what the scriptures say about an anxious heart. I know what the scriptures say about casting your cares upon the Lord. And that is exactly what I’m doing. My hope is in the Lord and I know He’ll answer me in His time.

In the mean time I’ve enjoyed the time spent with my family. I’ve enjoyed supporting my husband as he ministers through music and taking my children to their various activities. I’ve enjoyed the women’s bible studies, and getting together with fellow Christian writers. And most of all I’ve enjoyed spending time with the Lord, although I feel as if it is not enough.

If you think about it I could use your prayers.

Now for the blessings. I had a wonderful Valentine’s Day. My 13 year old daughter made me gluten-free cupcakes (my mother did too)! My daughter made them look like flowers and all she had was a Ziplock baggie. I guess it’s time to get her a starter kit for cake decorating.

And my husband surprised me with this wonderful bouquet of flowers.

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