How faithful is our Savior. (yes, I meant that as a statement) Once again we’re going to dig a little deeper into my faith. My family has been having a rough time of it. Somethings, as rough as I knew they would be, I prayed for and had been prepared. Others, seemed to come out of nowhere.
I wondered if the old me would rear its ugly head. At times it tried. When someone messes with a cub, the mama doesn’t mess around, even if the cub wasn’t playing where he/she should. I’ve taken some emotional beatings this week. The whole family has. But God has blessed us greatly in ways I didn’t expect.
Today was one of those emotional days. I’ve continually taken deep breaths to keep from sobbing. Not that sobbing is always a bad thing, but I feared I wouldn’t come out of it. It was difficult not to let the darkness of depression take me down into the abyss. It wasn’t a good time. Actually, no time is a good time, but especially not now.
The house began to settle into the quiet of the night and I knew I was standing on the edge. Each breath brought me closer to falling over. I took a shower, which was challenging since the hot water heater gave out earlier today, but it was a necessity. As odd as it may sound and probably a little TMI, It’s my prayer closet. A place I go and sing praises to the Lord (hey, everyone sings in the shower, right?) I also pray.
A peace began to settle, but the haze was still there on the horizon. One soppy commericial and I would have been a goner. So I sat at the computer. “LORD, I need some help here. I need some hope.”
I surfed on over to Pandora Radio and guess what the first song was. Nicole C. Mullins’ Call On Jesus. It’s one of my all time favorites. I’m having a difficult time embedding the video and adding a link so if you want to hear it you’ll have to google, believe me it’s worth it. I’ve added the chorus, written by Nicole C. Mullins, below.
But when I call on Jesus,
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles’ and soar
When I call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
‘Cause He’ll move heaven and earth to come rescue me when I call
I tend to call on the Lord in the small things and hold the big things to myself. What about you? Are you accustomed to calling on Jesus in all things? Or only when things seem impossible?