A few of my writer friends decided they wanted to do a NaNoWriMo sort of thing in January. We could work on something we already started on or start something new. I’m opting for revising what I started for Nano and then finishing up the word count I need to finish the book. I need at least twenty thousand words. That’s about six hundred forty-five words a day. Between yesterday and today I only increased a little over five hundred. *sigh*
It seems slow going and it’s giving me a headache just thinking about it, but I intend to stay the course. Ever little bit forward is progress. I know this. I preach this. So I just need to settle it in my mind and be content with what little progress I’ve made.
I did put in a solid hour of work on my manuscript, so that’s good. My hope is to eventually be working at least four hours a day five days a week. I’m certain not all that time will be dedicated to actual writing, but to plotting and research as well. One thing is I don’t want that time to include networking, that should be outside my writing time.
One of my goals this year is to blog a little more. Problem is at times there are too many topics running around in my head and others there’s nothing. It’s one of the reasons I tried to set myself a schedule. I’ve heard if you do anything for thirty days it becomes habit. I don’t know that I can blog thirty days straight. I guess I’m going to take it one day at a time.
On the Lord I know this should be a first topic, but I wanted it to be the last in your mind before you close the tab. I woke up this morning not wanting to get out of bed. I’m suffering from a kidney issue, could be a stone or it could be something else all together. Not having insurance for years on end I’ve learned to read the symptoms and to know when it’s time to go to the doctor’s office. I don’t like the pain pills he describes and won’t take them anyway so what is the point? I pay him an exorbitant amount of money for him to tell me what I already know? I think I’ll keep my dollars for now.
Anyway, I was laying there not wanting to get out of bed. There’s a lot going on as there always seems to be at the first of the year. I cried out to God. There is so much on my plate at the moment that there is no way I could handle it all on my own with a healthy body. How am I going to do it with a sick one?
No, this isn’t intended for a pity party. God heard me as I know He always does and He gave me two differing scriptures from two differing sources.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. (KJV)
Psalm 37:5 Commit thy way until the Lord, trust also in Him and He shall bring it to pass. (KJV)
These gentle reminders filled me with peace. I can’t do things on my own but I can do them through Christ Jesus who strengthens me. It doesn’t matter what it is, if it’s working on financial papers, mailing a letter, writing a blog, or dealing with a kidney stone I need to commit it all to Him. In committing it all to Him I’m showing my trust in His abilities to carry me through.
There is a song that Hillsong sings that says it best:
You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful of comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp you infinite wisdom
Who can fathom the depth of your love
You are beautiful beyond description
Majesty enthroned above
And I stand, I stand in awe of you
I stand, I stand in awe of you
Holy God to whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of you
His infinite wisdom, the depth of his love–it just amazes me. I mean the little bit of stress I experienced this morning is nothing compared to so many things going on in this world, but yet He cared enough to encourage me.