2013

So everyone seems to be talking about their goals for the new year. It’s hard not to when it’s one of the biggest events to roll around each year. This event tends to cause people to look backward at all they’ve accomplished and to look forward at what they long to achieve.

Every year, at least since 2009, I’ve set a goal to become published. 2012 I signed that contract. It’s huge. Even though most people won’t physically see the progress of my publishing goal, I know it’s on the way forward. And I can’t wait to share each moment with you.

As for 2013, well, I obviously would like to sell more books. I’d love to obtain an absolutely wonderful agent, one who would work with me to further my publishing career.

But–

1. I want to grow even closer to God
2. I want to be used by God to glorify His name.
3. I want to cherish moments with my family and watch them grow in the Lord.
4. I want to see my children experience the gifts God has given them to further His kingdom.
5. I want to praise more.

6. I want to start eating right.
7. I want to exercise a little more.
8. I want to lose weight.

Specifically in my writing, well this is what I’ve come up with to start for the month of January.

PRAY, PRAY, PRAY my writing needs to be completely in God’s hands.

1. Write at least 5 days a week. I’d love to work on writing like a full-time job, but that’s not possible at the moment.
2. Finish the 2nd Biblical story. You can see my progress on the right hand side.
3. Blog a little more.
4. Mentor/encourage

What do you want to accomplish this next year?

And They Will Become One Flesh

For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.
Genesis 2:24

I really don’t like posting pictures of myself, especially ones that are nearly twenty years old, but today is a special occasion.

Nineteen years ago today, I married the love of my life. The road hasn’t always been easy, but I can testify that God never left us or forsook us (Deut 31:6) during those times. I can also testify that He who began a good work in you is faithful to complete it (Philippians 1:6). I can also testify that I have confidence that that work will continue until the day we see our Lord and Savior.

Here for your viewing pleasure are a few pictures from that special day.

 

Pastor Greg McNall at then, Berry Creek Wesleyan Church.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Obviously our first kiss as husband and wife.

Pastor Greg McNall and his beautiful wife, Bonita.

 

 

 

 

 

These next few are my absolute favorites.

 

My adorable brother-in-law and ring bearer giving me a kiss before my wedding.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Isn’t he so cute?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Our daughter, Ami, with her Uncle.

Stepping out in Obedience

God is so amazing, amen?

“See, O Lord, how distressed I am! I am in torment within, and in my heart I am disturbed, for I have been most rebellious.”
Lamentations 1:20

I want to start off by apologizing to several people. If you’ve had a week where it seemed you weren’t on spot, or at your best, if things didn’t turned out the way you thought it should be, it had nothing to do with you, and everything to do with God’s all-encompassing love and compassion for one rebellious child. That’d be me. *g* You see, when you forgot things at home, or when the words failed to flow from your tongue, when things had to be improvised, God was showing me something.

I love music. I love the cadence, the highs and lows. The words that create stories in such a short space. I’ve longed to be gifted in music. I’ve had visions of my fingers flying across the black and white keys with grace and efficiency like Dino, but sadly, as hard as I’ve tried my tunes have always sounded more like an infant banging on pots and pans.

My father is musically gifted on the drums and guitar. When my husband sings it’s hard not to be moved. My three girls all play the piano. One of them also plays the guitar and writes lyrics. She has a gift that can only come from God. My son sings, he just hasn’t realized his gift yet. I’ve often joked about my lack of musical abilities, but deep inside my lack has saddened me.

Several months ago, my husband had asked me to sing with him in church. It hadn’t been the first time, but it was the first time that I really knew I needed to obey the urging in my heart. Of course, I did not. My fear of making a fool of myself in front of our entire congregation got the best of me. I recall sitting on the porch and watching him drive away as he went to praise and worship practice. My heart broke. And I had nobody to blame but myself for my disobedience.

As the weeks passed by, I continued to watch my husband drive off to praise and worship practice. Secretly, I prayed for another chance. If only he’d asked me again, I’d choke down my fear and try to be obedient. Honestly, I would. But he didn’t. He didn’t ask. Not because he was disappointed in me (believe me, he had no idea what God was doing in me), but I think because he knew I’d say no.

Finally, after a long wait he asked me this week. And boy was I scared, but I went to practice with him. I even slunk up to the stage and sat on the stool. I tried to sink into the wall but I wasn’t throwing-up-scared. It wasn’t until after we were done that I began to doubt. Thoughts bombarded my mind. I worried that I’d be so pitchy it’d make the congregation uncomfortable and they wouldn’t be able to worship God or hear the message.

In the days between practice and yesterday’s service God showed me a few things. One, I witnessed several professional musicians sing totally off-key, yet His message still came across. Two, I received some great advice from a fellow writer; I may not be able to do it, but God can. And three, He showed me through the entire service that even though man tries to orchestrate the events of the day, He has a greater plan.

Yes, I did go up on stage. And yes, I did sing. And yes, my heart was much lighter after stepping into obedience. I thank God for giving me another opportunity to be obedient. Does that mean I’m called to sing? Not necessarily. I don’t think it’s my God-given gift, not like it is for my husband and my children, but it can be my offering.

Have you ever felt an urging from God and disobeyed? Where you given the chance to make it right? Are you being disobedient now?

Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name. Bring an offering and come before him; worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness.
1 Chronicles 16:29